Sunday, November 8, 2015

You don't need a man, you need a goddamn warrior!

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Warning: naughty language ahead!

To my sweet wild woman, I know why it hasn’t worked out with anyone else—you don’t need a man, but a goddamn warrior.

You are the strength of Turkish coffee at sunrise darlin’ and don’t try to pretend that you’re not.

You are one of the wild ones, and no matter how you tried to hide that fact, you can’t be anything other than what you are—and that’s okay. You are just as you are supposed to be, magnificently wild in all of your chaotic beauty.

I know you’ve had your heart broken and I know that you don’t understand why it always seems to never work out, but I’ve finally figured it out:

You don’t need a man, you need a goddamn warrior.

It doesn’t matter if this warrior drives a Jeep or a shiny sports car, and it won’t matter if he wears silk or cotton—it will not even matter if he works in a high-rise, or on the night shift.

What is going to matter is that when it comes to taking bets on your heart, he is going to be high stakes—all the way.

This warrior of yours will crave your strength, and your intensity. He’s going to look at you and not see something to tame, but something to just fuckin’ admire. This warrior of yours won’t be someone that you can manipulate or play with as you have in the past, so honey, don’t even try—and trust me, you’re going to love him even more because of it.

Because you aren’t just a woman, you’re a goddamn goddess.

Your fierceness is going to bring him to his knees every single time he looks into your gorgeous eyes, but the difference is, unlike the others, he isn’t going to be scared off. No, this time, you will have finally met your match—because a simple man for you just won’t do.

You need someone to match the fire in your eyes with his own. Not only that, my little wild thing, but this warrior of yours is going to want to encourage the flames instead of trying to douse them with his own insecurities.

Because for you, a warrior is the only man who will ever live in the wild with you.

He may not have to slay any dragons to earn your love, but he would still walk through fire if it meant seeing that amazing smile that you hold in reserve for only him.

This is the thing, free spirit, this warrior you seek….he’s seeking you too.

For he’s had failed relationships that have left him wondering if maybe he was meant to be alone for the rest of his journey—and you’re going to change all of that for him. You both have been travelling along on your separate journeys and have been doing an okay job at it, but that about to change too.

Because baby, when you and this warrior of yours meet and collide—it’s going to be a love set on fire.

Don’t try to run this time—I know your heart has been broken before, and that you’re not used to things working out, but this time it’s different. Give yourself time to see that.

This warrior of yours needs to see that it’s possible for someone to see all of his wild, and still be there when he craves his freedom and ventures off into this world for a bit. You won’t always need to follow him, just as he won’t always follow you. Let yourself stay wild, even when all you want to do is curl up in that spot along his side and forget the rest of the world exists.

Let yourself still wander naked under the full moon, and drink moonshine with the stars. Let yourself feel the pull of the wind on your heart, and the sun toward a new journey. Because this warrior is going to love you because of your wild—and he’ll want you to keep it.

You’ll be in this together now, this amazing, crazy, chaotic, wonderfully heartbreaking life—because it takes a warrior to love a goddess. And it takes a goddess to show a warrior what real love is.

So pack up your insecurities and your ideas about picket fences, because that was never you anyway. You were born knowing that you were destined for more, and now is the time for you to see what all those dreams look like.

There is no stopping a love like this, so promise me you’ll hold out just a little bit longer.

Have a little bit of hope, and always give love just one more try, because I promise you my sweet wild woman—the love that you seek is seeking you as well.

 

Monday, February 16, 2015

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Sunday, April 20, 2014

The ISness

How does one grow without making space? How does one become better than they were in the moment before without making space? In our moments, we are constantly finding ourselves tangled up in the "I, Me, Mine" - "You, yours, his/hers" mentality - forgetting that our wholeness already is, as is so much of what we seek outside of ourselves. Our minds fill our moments with constant chatter to the point where we've given it a voice and consume our now's with chaotic melodies that keep us in a constant state of confusion. We're always drifting to the past or wondering into the future.Yet we forget, the only true time is right here, right now. Everything else has either already happened, or has yet to happen...but the now is always happening as Is. And so, we drift sailing here and there, in circles of chaos following an enchanting melody that never leads us to shore. The human experience is filled with paradoxes, as we are always searching outside of ourselves to become more than what we deem "ordinary" rather wishing to become unique/special/great in some capacity.... forgetting that by resting in simplicities, by resting in the magic of the now and trusting the direction we are currently flowing in, we already are all we want to become. There is nothing that can be found outside of ourselves. To search beyond where we are is to inevitably set out on a journey of suffering. It is almost laughable to see ourselves look all around 'out there' for that which can only be found in us. The peace, the tranquility, the forgiveness, the knowing, the compassion, the LOVE, the truth of what we truly are and forever will be is all right where we are, and yet we journey about in an endless search of what already is - wondering why nothing we "discover" brings peace to our moments. When we quiet our minds, we resurrect the voice of the heart. We give it space to come out of the darkness and to speak to us in silence. Minds hold onto ideas about what we think we are, as hearts know. Hearts don't try to prove right or wrong - minds do. And so, as the heart is given space to rise above and shine down on us, we make room for the necessary by letting go of the unnecessary. The necessary is given space to speak, while the unnecessary evaporates itself, and with it the chaos/doubt/fear/worry/judgments fade as well. Our minds are so filled with chatter of disbelief that they even turn simplicities into chaos. Minds can't fathom what IS, as they are always seeking to prove what isn't about the ISness. They have no faith in anything but self-preservation.....yet our idea of self, held in the mind, isn't even real and so the heart returns to us allowing us rest/peace/tranquility/compassion as we explore our doubts in our journey, and we begin to experience ancient truths of what IS and forever will be.....and doubt too, evaporates itself. It is meant for us to experience our "individual" adventures, because inevitably it will lead us to the knowing that we are all a part of the whole. As science continues to grow,develop and unfold.....like Earth, like the Universe, like us... we will be shown more and more that we are all connected on the same energy field, as the ripples made in the water on one side of the Universe will reach the shores of its other side. And as our experience continues, and journey unfolds, and our minds unravel, and our heart speaks, our light will combine, and we will walk hand in hand in gratitude for the inevitable truths that exist without versions or translations...we will all rest together, and forever more in what IS. LOVE & LIGHT

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Bravehearts, Take Off Your Cool

The world has become more and more noisy with the creation of social networks. Though so many great meetings occur through these sites, it seems that over time the noise has become increasingly louder, and I often ask myself what is being said. It seems that social networks give so many a platform to speak their beliefs, feelings, ideas, rhetoric and dogma - which is good, everyone needs an outlet, but the more I read/hear/see/listen to, the more I wonder who is speaking behind the words and where are they speaking from. This so called spiritual life, and the community I often run into on social networks, has, to me, become nothing more than the same as the religious world that we all claim to have "awaken" from. Words have merely been replaced with other words, but the idea....the condemnation/fear/judgments/grouping has all continued, and I find that the more followers one has, the more powerful they believe themselves to be....if only on this thing we call the internet. I've witnessed humility that could once be felt in every line turn to an indirect ...almost passive aggressive "I know more & better than you" egoic tone that floods timelines....and it all brings me to ask, what are we truly in this for....ourselves, or the whole? Who is truly speaking.....the heart or the mind? Did we truly awaken.....or did we just fall into a dream within a dream? Where there is balance there is a better understanding of the extremes of the world and their need. Both light & dark are needed. Both mind and heart are needed. And contrary to popular belief, the ego at one point in our existence was even needed......but we have forgotten the balance of all things. We have forgotten the great law of "As above, So below." And so we speak, without truly listening to ourselves or others.....but rather just to hear ourselves and see how others interpret what we deem as great...only to place ourselves on these pedestals to be looked up to and revered as some sort of "special" person. In essence, because we have forgotten the balance, we speak from our egos. It's all mind talk.......and we mute the heart. Bind it, cover it, guard it in the name of protection, and condemn it to silence. We hide it behind so many barriers of fear, that it makes it impossible for anyone to penetrate our very core. So then as the heart screams in silence, the mind is left to lead us.......but to where? This so called spiritual world is becoming a big business, just like religion.....and everyone wants a piece. Right before our very eyes, we are beginning to complicate the very simplicity that we said we awakened to. I find that it is so easy to recite a great passage, or piece together the perfect tweet.......but what are we truly living. Where are we speaking from? What will we pause for, and truly listen to? Anyone can recite dogma & rhetoric.....the mind can do that with ease as it has been conditioned to do lifetime after lifetime, and thus has essentially become a master of it......but it takes the heart to get to & through the core of ourselves....to get through to the core of our very being. Until we are brave enough to be truly honest with ourselves about who and what we truly are, there is nothing being said....mere words jumbled up falling on deaf ears that have forgotten their purpose. It's amazing to think how chaotic and confusing words have become. Easy to say, but difficult to follow up as we've moved from the vulnerability of being opened to the elusive protection of being closed.....I'm talking soul here. There is comfort to be found in both silence & speaking. Comfort to be found in both speaking & listening. Comfort to be found in the simplicity of communication when we allow it to serve it's purpose, instead of our own. As life continues to happen to us and through us, and moments continue to become the now, I invite us all to remove our egoic self from it's stance as the guard for the heart's prison walls, and allow our true selves a moment of freedom. Only when we find peace in the moment Only when we allow space to simply be Only when we smooth out the tangles Only when we allow our hearts to soar free Only when our actions & words align Only when LOVE is the platform Only when the here becomes the NOW Only when we allow the art of communication to bridge the gaps, will we be able to reunite as one. Shhhhhhh. Listen. It's your heart - Begging for a simple moment to speak. Be brave enough to allow it. LOVE & LIGHT

Monday, January 13, 2014

Road Warriors

Life on the road, I've found over the years, is anything but easy. A few years ago, I set my intentions...I wanted to travel again. I had walked away from a extremely lucrative career, my condo, many friends, etc...in hopes of truly living. While I was unattached for the first time in my adult life, I willed that I would have an opportunity to travel again like I did when I was a child....to see the world.... The Universe led me to a position that became the vessel to these travels. In the beginning, I was anxious yet excited. I left behind all I knew and set out on a new frontier. As life moved moment to moment, and I began to experience more, things began to change. It took for an ancient LOVE to enter into my space for me to really realize that though I appreciated what I had done and had experienced......that I had begun to out grow my past desires, and that my new intention was Evolving as I was. Over the past few months, my confidant on my team who does what I do, began feeling the same way. He recently stepped down so that he could be with his family. I remember the night he made the decision, we joked about not remembering what it was like to have a home, or friends, or a life. Life on the road can be VERY CHALLENGING. Though friends and family back home are still in existence, we have no escape....no haven to escape to, no one to hang out with. We do everything by ourselves.....we eat alone, spend weekends alone, discover newness alone......and after a while it takes a toll on you. Very few people on the outside TRULY understand this unless they are going through it. Our job is to enter PROBLEM properties and fix the problems. Once the problems are fixed, we move onto the next and the next and the next. Our stress levels are through the roof, and when we really do get to get home we're so exhausted that it's difficult to really BE in the presence of your LOVEd ones without being asleep, sleepy, or completely drained mentally and emotionally.....and the few days we have at home, we're still called and emailed with the problems back at work......because we are the answer. Fast forward to today. Currently,on top of my regular duties of "problem solver" I'm also partnering with a construction company and playing the role of "project manager" as well for my company. I didn't tale to this guy very easily, but over the past month and a half, we have begun to build a good professional relationship. He's a genuinely good guy who doesn't like to step on toes, and I can appreciate that. So as we normally do, we had our morning huddle for the day's plan and decided we meet later for an update. About an hour later, out of nowhere, he came to the front desk and asked me if he could speak with me privately. This guy is always smiling and cracking jokes, but in this moment I knew something was wrong. He asked if we could go somewhere outside of work, and assured me that he was not "hitting on me", but really needed to talk to me about some thing. I reminded him that I would lose my job for hanging out with him outside of work, but the look in his eye told me that he really needed to talk. I noticed he looked like he was about to cry, and I immediately asked him if he wanted to step into a room to speak privately, he said "yes..." The moment we stepped into the room, he took a deep breath. I told him he was scaring me, and he started crying. I just sat quietly and allowed him his moment. He began to tell me that for the past 7 months, he has been going through a divorce. Like me, he travels constantly.....and one day his wife just got fed up with them being apart. He told me that he didn't know what to do or how to deal with what he was feeling, so he just drinks...."every day....every hour Sonia...on the job....I just drink..." He told me that this past Sunday, he tried to stop, and that he began to experience horrible withdrawals symptoms, and so he drank again. I just listened. All I could do is listen. When he stopped, I spoke....and all I could think to tell him was that I understood completely. I told him that I know first hand how difficult life on the road is, and how "alone" we can feel, and how drained we become....and how being the leader of others while on the road...we're expected to show up every day and be prepared to lead.....BUT I also understood that even though we are leaders of professional teams....we are also people ...we are people who go through things without the luxury of being able to fully deal with how we feel because we're always at work or away at work.......he began to smile just knowing that I totally understood where he was. We talked for a while....he confided in me ...cried some more....and I just listened. In the end, I told him that I knew he was in pain emotionally, but that he had to feel his way through what he was feeling. I reminded him that numbing his pain was only delaying what he would one day have to experience. He told me that he called AA, and wanted to attend a meeting. I told him that I would go with him, if he wanted me to. He thanked me for listening to him, and I thanked him for feeling comfortable enough to speak with me so openly.....as we had never had a personal conversation until that moment. I haven't spent the day asking "why did he choose to pour his heart out to me, a complete stranger" but rather, I spent the day sending him energy of LOVE....I know what he's feeling, and in the moment he cried.....he did so for us both. I know that though life on the road may not be easy.....had I not been living on this road, this man may not have had a shoulder to lean on in the moment he felt he needed one the most.......and I was instantly reminded of my own strength & of how purposeful this Universe is. I don't know where this road will lead me....or him....but I know that no matter how challenging our moments may seem, everything we need will be provided...even if it's something as simple as an ear to listen. We hugged one another as if we had known each other for years, and we've barely known one another a month.... but in that moment....nothing else mattered except that moment....and we parted ways with smiles. LOVE & LIGHT

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Building Community

If you're looking for some groovy, peaceful folks to follow on twitter, look no further:

@Fromneweyes
@theredpillpusha
@hipsteryogi
@vntge1982
@callabash11
@zajizee

Also, check out these websites for blogs, malas, community pages & more...

www.fromneweyes.com
www.namastelovelight.com
www.thezaji.com

You are not alone. We are everywhere.

Sunday, December 8, 2013