Change

They say that change is the only constant in LIFE. Today is when that constant has appeared in mine. I never ever thought that a day like today would exist. I'm not sad. I'm not crying, or in pain.....just really ready for the next phase in my life.

10 years ago I fell in love with this kid in college. Seems like just yesterday we were in the parking lot of the library talking....and discovering. Crazy how it all started from a very insignificant phrase, but I am thankful for the experience. It was a whirlwind love affair....a ton of bliss coupled with a ton of pain. We fell in love on the first night. People say that that is an impossibility....but impossible is NOT a scientific term.

Naturally we didn't make it. He was 20 and I 23. He said that he had to discover life, and while discovering he didn't want to "hurt" me. I was crushed, because I didn't understand how he could turn away from what we felt. I spent my entire college career in love with him. I've spent the better part of my adult life comparing men to him. Not indulging in some good men who crossed my path, because they were fraternity brothers.....or because I was simply worried about what he would think....or I wanted to be "available" for that moment....you know the moment where he would come back for me. He never did.

We've been friends for years now, however things still aren't reciprocated. I often am left feel unappreciated. Used. Neglected. Today during meditation he came up. As I asked the question "how do I get ready?" the answer came that I had to say goodbye.
And so I did.

So this is the first day of this new and uncharted territory. For the past 10 years, I've been stuck in 2000...and today I have finally arrived in 2010. This is not an easy thing for me to do by far. this is not something I take lightly, or something I think will just disappear into thin air. However, it was certainly something that should have been done a while ago.

Things may not always end up the way you thought they would, but if you just sit in silence for a second...just a second....things will end up as they should!


One thing I know for sure is that if you don't create change, change will create you. Change is the essence of life. There is no reason to be afraid, rather I must be willing to surrender what I am for I will become. Change is inevitable....and I'm good with that!

LOVE & LIGHT

The Healer

Today is such a great day and it's only 9:59am. I feel it in everything. I see it in everything. Joy. Bliss. Smiles...already.

I meditated on happiness this morning and discovered what I have known since my creation. Happiness can never be found because it has never been lost. I remember when I used to say things like "I can't wait to be happy". I remember when I met my now best friend David and I posed that statement to him. His reply was baffling to me at the time. I barely understood it then, but in retrospect it almost makes me laugh. He said "why are you waiting to be happy? You just simply be happy and any reason NOT to be happy will dissipate."

I remember re-reading that over and over again, having no idea that it was all part of my reawakening. Funny sometimes how the Source works. There is no such thing as a coincidence at all. I am thankful for David's insight and friendship.

So today, I will focus on just smiling and being thankful to smile. Life is not without purpose.

Chin up!
Head to the sky!
Breathe!

LOVE & LIGHT

NOW

Every morning I send out a daily text message trying to motivate and inspire a few people around me. Funny how that started. My sister is going through some things in life and I started sending her quotes that I would read in the morning. Then every time someone would call me and we would talk, I would find that they were "lokking for something" and so I would add them onto the morning text. Snowball effect took place. Then for a few days I sent nothing. Not on purpose, but I just didn't know the impact that it had on people's lives....they would text me and ask if I was ok, and that's when I knew I was on to something.

Today after my morning meditation I sent out this:

Everyday you should reaafirm that 2010 will overflow with abundance and goodness in your life. Decide upon your goals. SPEAK THEM INTO THE NOW! Don't say "I will get" or "I have received" Instead say "I AM RECEIVING". Tape your affirmations to your mirror. See and believe as if they already exist. Stop thiking that you are powerless. HE made you in HIS image, so you are POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE. Don't give up and don't give in. The best is waiting on you to just receive it NOW.

So many people think that they are powerfless. As if their life is on default and IT'S NOT! I so want the world to WAKE UP to the truth of it all. Nothing is as it seems.

Today I feel so refreshed. Not drained because the other night I was so fed up with the way I was feeling. The difference with it is that I now KNOW that I DON'T HAVE TO FEEL LIKE THAT! It's always a choice. I used to think it was a necessary fact of life that would eventually pass.....but it passes when you DECIDE for it too. We are not without purpose. pain is inevitable, misery is OPTIONAL, but HAPPINESS IS OUR RIGHT!

Reboot.
Refresh.
RESTART.

Today is a GREAT day! (See how I spoke in the NOW:)

LOVE & LIGHT

Purpose

I've spent quite a bit of time pondering on some questions. For instance,
"why am I here?"
"What am I here for?"
"What is the 'right' path for me?"

Somedays I am more receptive to listen than others. Somedays I can move quicker than others. Somedays I feel like I am merely crawling.
Letting go of how you were raised to think things are is a challenge for me to say the least. I feel as if some of the things I need to release I just don't want to.....others go with ease.

Then I ponder on "what is EASY exactly". Wouldn't that be just another one of these human laws we created? There is no level of ease or difficulty with the Source or the Divine or the Universe, so why do we as humans make things harder than they have to be. Why do we wish to hold on to pain and worry and lack and limitation MORE SO than we wish to hold on to goodness, and bliss, and abundance? It's perplexing at best.

Really if you think about it, if we all stood together on this precipice NOTHING would be beyond our reach. Yet, people spend MORE time on the bad than the good. Think about how much more you here about this "devil" character tempting you and lurking around you, than you hear about the Source and His greatness. Makes no sense.

Today I open my arms as I have done so many times before and remove myself from the world's doom and gloom. It really all boils down to if I would rather stand alone in bliss, or be surrounded by familiar pain and suffering.

My days of the later are over. Delay is the only thing I have control over now. Delay of bliss. Delay of joy. Delay of purpose. One thing I know for sure is that I am NOT nor have I ever been a LAB RAT. I was not brought to this Earth at this time to endure pain and strife and to give a Higher Being His 7 laughs for the day. To think any thing other than this is insane to me. Taking the hard road is just completely insane.

Live
Now

It's what we all should be doing. It's time for me to REopen my eyes to the goodness and grace that I am surrounded by. The nightmare is not only no longer needed, however it is no longer wanted. I say YES. No matter how many steps I take back. No matter how many reminders i need. No matter how deep in the ground my knees dig. I'm ready. truly ready for this.

Afterall, it is the very reason I have chosen to come to be....SONIA.

LOVE & LIGHT

Storm Brewing....

Some days, most days, I am up very early in the morning looking for a quotation to begin my day with or to send out to my friends and family. Often times it's hard to put my finger on just one that sums up the way I feel inside or to find one that I believe will speak to the masses that I am trying to reach.

Today I found several.
“Some people wear their smile like a disguise. Those people who smile a lot, watch their eyes. I know 'cause I'm like that a lot. You think every thing's OK, and it is . . . 'till it's not.” Ani Difranco

"What we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday, and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow: Our life is the creation of our mind.” Buddha

To worry about tomorrow is to be unhappy today

They all spoke volumes to my heart! This year is going to be good, and I can feel it because already something is trying to emerge within me. I can't put a finger on it, I just know that when I'm alone and quiet it feels like a storm is raging inside. Like I can't place my finger on exactly the "problem" or even the solution for that matter. Something is just telling me that I am NOT on the right track. Whatever this feeling is, it's beckoning me to stop and regroup and to find another route.

This spiritual journey has not been easy for me. When I say "me", I am speaking of the transformation from who I was before to who I am becoming. I have lost a bunch of good people along the way, and have also been blessed to keep some good people too. I'm in so deep, I can hardly turn around now. Some days I wish I could. The days that I can't tell up from down....right to left.....front to back.....those are the days that I wish I had never stumbled across all of the materials and people responsible for assisting in waking me up. Funny thing is that I know that feeling only exist because I am prolonging something. Delaying it if you will.

So when I awoke this morning, I figured I would look for something to get me through this day peacefully. Did my own ground work, and hopefully I will be successful in filling myself up once again. Cause after all, there is truly no reason to delay this spiritual journey. As much as I sometimes wish I could go back.....I more so wish I could fast forward.

There is work to be done, and I will not digress. Standing firm and my feet are planted. LIFT ME UP!

LOVE & LIGHT

Sunday Morning Rain is fallin......

Oh it's one of those precious days. Gloomy, rain, cold, it's such a perfect day to be snuggled up. Perfect day to meditate. Perfect day to just be. Reflect upon the Now. re-center yourself. It's one of those days.

I believe today, I will catch up on some things that I should have taken care of a very long time ago. I will probably paint, and write, and read a bit. Just have an all around renaissance type time.

Find things and allow them to emerge from within. Face myself today. Work on some things to make myself better. Retreat into the lab, and like the rest of the world....allow somethings to take advantage of this rain, and GROW!

Love & Light

Smilin....

I was just jammin to my homeboi HD's song. An exclusive! It's so good. I can't wait til that kid makes it to where he sees himself being. He deserves it, and I hope the whole crew comes back to life. That would be good for them all. You should check him out. You can download his latest mixtape via this link here ----------> http://www.multiupload.com/0IC5AUPPCI


Let me know what you think of him. Or you can also check him out at www.myspace.com/thisismyentry

Let him know if you dig him. He's pretty good.

Today was a pleasant day. I was shocked to have received an email from an obviously very intuitive friend of mine named Kyle. Boy, that previous sentence was a run on. lol. I am thankful that he knew exactly what to say and when to say it. The most High is pleasant like that. That was the beginning of my shift. That's all it takes is a shift of consciousness. We all just need to hold on. Hold on to ALL that is good....and watch the increase.

Today and everyday, I AM THANKFUL!

Love & Light
** Thanks again Kyle.

Jogging Through My Head

LOL. My mind has been racing all day. Things are going on inside, and right now I just so happen to e in a "dark night." It's seems not too long ago, moments like this would literally BREAK ME DOWN to where I couldn't eat, I couldn't think, I wouldn't allow myself to smile....for weeks I kept up this crazy behavior. Thinking that that was what I was suppose to do....suppose to do. We are so programmed, don't be mistaken.

Any who, and now that time has moved on, and I have grown by leaps and bounds....things are a bit more "easier" to handle...they still hurt, but they make more sense. lol. Well, I guess "they make sense".......SOMETIMES.

It's been almost 9 months, and I can still feel him pull me to him before he fell fast asleep.

It's been almost 9months, and I can still see him sitting on the couch across from me concentrating on his current game with whomever he was playing on the Internet racing, and after he would win he would glance at me and just smile.

I remember that we didn't have to always be talking. We very much learned the art of just being. We learned so much from one another. We learned how to speak to one another. To go against the grain and show emotion. Show care. Show concern. Show joy.
It was always the little things. How I made him feel at home, and how me always let me know I was on his mind.
Then he was willing. I was just happy. Happy that I had finally met someone who understood me so thoroughly. The naps on the couch on a Sunday afternoon in between my sports lessons via NFL season. LOL I even remember the live games we would attend. Then I remember his birthday. That was a good day. SO many smiles.

Do I miss him? More than anyone could imagine. I just keep thinking...just one more day. if only I had had one more day. I would have stared a little longer. I would have touched a little softer. I would have made time stand still, just to have one more moment in that bliss.

I never said my post would all be "inspirational", only that if you read, I would write.
It just so happens I WRITE TRUTH.

LOVE & LIGHT

Dreaming

I had the most real dream last night. I've had some things on my mind lately, that I don't really want to share with people who know me, because I'm sure there thought to the situation would be the same thing..."STILL?"

The dream I dreamt was as if time picked up where my thoughts left it before sleep. It was so weird, but one of those dreams that you DON'T want to wake from. I was with a person that I care a great deal for.....STILL. It was surreal. he was there, and apologized out of the blue, and we laid and laughed and loved life as we used to do. Not many moons ago. As if our relationship played out in my dream.

When I finally woke up this morning, unaware that I was entering reality, I became instantly sad because my dream was over and more than that...IT WAS NOT REAL. I really had to catch myself because I felt as if I wanted to cry. I wanted so bad for this dream to be real, and when reality hit me......I didn't want to accept it. I ended up just getting out of bed and staring out of the window. At times, almost in tears.

Then I remembered how much I had to be thankful for, and a slight smile broke through. I picked up my journal and just begin to list the things that I am thankful for to shift my thoughts and also my mood. I even listed that I was able to see this person in my dreams as one of the things I am most thankful for.

I'm not sure if I can handle more of these dreams, or why I insist on even having them in the first place. Today I just know....that people are missed, however life does not end there and so I must keep on trucking. Light is seen at the end of the tunnel....and it's time to continue the voyage.

LOVE & LIGHT

Tunnel Vision

It saddens me how the world will help briefly then stop and go on with life. The devastation that has occurred in Haiti is beyond measure, yet people have donated $5 or $10 and have gone back to believing that their contribution will suffice. If that is the only thing one can do....by all means IT WILL SUFFICE. However, for most of us, more can be done and more should be done.

Imagine if your entire city was leveled.
YOUR ENTIRE CITY.

Imagine walking thru the streets and to the left and right of you there are nothing but bodies. Imagine that your loved ones or friends couldn't be identified, and were just burned before you could even get to them. Imagine your mother or brother or sister, or child were waiting for medical help and DIED a senseless death WAITING.

How can we stand by while this great tragedy is taking place....

FOR SOMEONE, THIS IS THEIR REALITY.

We must stand up, and stand together and help this nation. They have lost EVERYTHING.
How can $5 or $10 ever be enough?

WAKE UP!

LOVE & LIGHT

HAITI

We can't stand by and wait for these huge castrophes to occur before we take a stand to do something for the people who are less fortunate than us. It makes no sense. HAITI HAS BEEN IN NEED, why are we just turning to them to lend a hand now? People in our own neighborhoods...in our communities are in need NOW.

Let's not wait.
Let's make a difference.

Donate to Haiti.

Donate to a "M.O.V.E.M.E.N.T" near you!

Let's do the work!

LOVE & LIGHT

This whole situation in Haiti...

Reminds me of the whole Hurricane Katrina fiasco. I remember I was working in Journeys in Albany and I wanted to do something. There was this great force in me that just wanted to leave my job and drive over to Louisiana and help the people in need. I remember my dad and everyone telling me to calm down and I couldn't. In the end, we set up a "donation jar" where we asked for donations of change from our customers. We raised a little bit of money....but it was very rewarding.

There are so many people in the world that need help and it's a shame that it takes something like this for them to gain attention. The people of Louisianan were no different, they needed us BEFORE Katrina.

We've got to do better as a people to be individuals who don't just follow the status quot of things. There is power in numbers and WE THE PEOPLE always have the numbers....we just don't always stand up for the things that should be up under our feet.

We must do better~!

LOVE & LIGHT

AND PRAYERS TO THE PEOPLE OF HAITI

THANKFUL

I've been sick for almost the past 2 weeks. It's been a roller coaster of a ride, because I am a firm believer that sickness is of the mind. I too every kind of medicine that I could get my hands on. I called out of work. I layed down. I aired out my house. I did everything that I THOUGHT worked for me in the past.

The entire time, I knew that something was boggling my mind, but it was one of those things that I just couldn't put my hand on. It seemed to be a plethora of things rolled into a giant ball.

Last night, I decided to get back to basics and to listen to a CD while I slept, and began to consciously change my view on all the things I was focusing on. I have been less than satisfied with my current employer and have begun to just be angry about going to work knowing I would be greeted with a bunch of MESS as I walked thru the door. That anger spread into my life subconsciously, and I began to go against doing all the things that I know work in my life. Namely, I was n o longer thankful for all the blessings in my life.

So today, I feel better than I have in weeks. I feel alive and anew. I have made a CONSCIOUS effort to be thankful because contrary to what I was believing there is SO MUCH IN MY LIFE TO BE THANKFUL FOR. So many wonderful things that I can't even began to list on here for fear that I will run out of room. LOL

So today, I just want to remind anyone who reads this to NOT GIVE UP, and TO BE THANKFUL...mindfully THANKFUL of all the many wonderful blessings in your life. HAPPEN TO LIFE, don't sit back and wait for life to happen to you! SO many times we find it so much easier to fall into that rut of despair, but today RISE UP and smile.....

I am returning a VICTOR, letting go of the victim role. I hope you will too.

I can feel it in the AIR....

This year really has an air of excitement that is lingering with me. LIMITLESS POSSIBILITIES.

There is so much I want to do and discover. First things first, I would love to travel again. I was born overseas, and would love to return to Europe and witness its beauty and history as an adult with these "new eyes" that I have. I so want to ride in a gondola along the streets of Venice, I want to throw my head back and exhale as I take in the sights of the Sistine Chapel, I want to see the sun set behind the mysterious pyramids of Eygpt. I just want to be in the center of history, and in the center of greatness.

This is one of my goals for 2010. Travel.

I would love to began performing again, and by the looks of things that will happen as well.
Oh there is so much hope and possibility for this year. It's in the air. It's in every breath that we take and every move we make. I pray that with each step we take, we do not leave ths feeling behind. My prayer is that we stay consistent in our lessons, in our lives, and in our hopes and dreams.

Life is a phenomenal trip.....and I am so ready to take the ride.

LOVE & LIGHT

Sickness is in the mind???

Being sick is never any fun. I hate it, and it seems that I have been sick this year more times than I have been in the past 7 years. Crazy. They say that DIS*EASE of any kind is in the mind.....I believe that. Today I am taking time out for me, to figure out why I have chosen to inflict this DIS*EASE (notice the break down of the word) upon myself.

That's pretty much it. I need to get back into bed...I can barely breathe or sit up straight. Even though I am under the weather I am thankful. I am thankful to be given this time to review my choices and make better ones where needed. I AM healed NOW.

Since I don't have much to share with you today, I will leave you with this quote. I dig it a bunch.

“Peace is not something you wish for; It's something you make, Something you do, Something you are, And something you give away.” Robert Fulghum

LOVE & LIGHT

Clarity

This year is off to a fantastic start. Two of the biggest things that I needed to work on were/are FORGIVENESS & LETTING GO. Seems for some reason, I am able to do that suddenly. I suppose it's not so sudden though.

I entered this year with a great sense of clarity. A freed mind. Very peaceful, and I am extremely thankful. Man, 09 was filled to the brim with lesson after lesson after lesson. It sometimes seemed as if they would never end. I believe I'm at a point in my life now where I am more aware than I have ever been, and so the karmic lessons that come my way are analyzed a bit more closely so that I get the lesson this time and don't have to repeat it later. I am thankful for that. For having the desire to even want to take on a big challenge such as deal with past karma. Trust me it is not an easy feat.

Perhaps the fact that I am FEARLESS about facing this challenge is the reason I am so clear. The Source is a remarkable being, and I am THANKFUL that he sees me through.

I can feel the wonder and possibility in the air. I can feel the limitless nature of us all. I can feel the abundance floating. I can feel the shift taking place. This great shift of awareness. I can feel Mother earth breathing again. Her heartbeat pulsating like a thunderous clap. I can feel smiles and warmth. I can feel peace and possibility. I can see clearly......More clearly than I've been able to see in years!

LOVE & LIGHT

Finding Me......

I know sometimes I get this extremely lonely feeling. Sometimes I feel as if the weight of MY world is sitting on my shoulders and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. Sometimes I feel helpless. Sometimes I feel as if I am a failure. Sometimes I feel as if I don't if "right" was the turn I should have made. Sometimes I just don't know.

People around me always have seen so much in me. From the time I was a child I can remember my father telling me that I had a certain quality about me that would push me past the limit. Sometimes I wish no one expected anything of me, so that I could find it easier to find me.

Then there are the other days. The days filled with bliss. The days I meditate and can hear the Source speaking back to me. The days when I help someone and I feel as if I have saved the world. The days when I have all the right answers and all the right questions. The days where my chest is out. My arms are open and I simply yell up to the HEAVENS YES! Emphatically YES!

Funny thing is, the cloudy days are so few and far between, however those are the days I used to allow to make the greatest impression in my life. Why? They even creep into my sunny days without my permission, or so it would seem. Why? I don't think myself to be a gluten for punishment. I don't think myself to be a person of circumstance. If I am a pioneer.....I must keep trucking, right?

So today, I will focus on creating only what's good and LETTING GO of all else. There does not have to be a battle raging inside of me, because the reality of it all is that I can never be FOUND, because I was NEVER LOST. The mind can only fool you into believing that you must look outside yourself for that which is and forever will be inside of you. I am a creator - co creator to the SOURCE! AS ARE YOU! It doesn't matter if you "believe" or not......you are what you are. UNLIMITED, POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE, KING OF YOUR WORLD.......never forbidden, never forgotten, never alone....and NEVER LOST!

LOVE & LIGHT

GRATITUDE is the word for today.....

So many times we get so caught up in our everyday life of "wanting." We are programmed (don't be fooled)by television, magazines, and really society as a whole into believing that in order to be successful we must HAVE and GET more than our neighbors have or get. We all want the fancy cars, the jewelry, the nice house, we all want the life others will admire and stand back to envy us....but my question is "HOW IN THE WORLD IS THIS NORMAL?" & "WHEN YOU ARE IN THE BUSINESS OF GETTING AND HAVING - WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WORTH GETTING AT A COST SO HIGH?"

Keeping up with the Jones' was never my thing until I started working with a company in Atlanta about two years ago. I became friends with people who were driven by money, power and greed. You know the saying, "birds of a feather flock together..." So I myself was in no way exempt from the adjectives I just used to describe the people I worked for. I had the money, and shopped DAILY (my co-workers & ex will attest to that) and had $300 dinners and so on and so forth....but something inside of me was more miserable than I had ever been. Mind you, I have been through some trials in my life. All of which I am sure will come up in this blog at a later date, but it amazed me that I was not happy with the people I called friends, my job where I worked almost always 7 days a week (without being scheduled of course), and suddenly the money meant nothing as I was giving it all away to those around me in need anyway.

Without even knowing, I was pushing myself away from this misery and challenging myself to FIND A BETTER WAY! Then my second spiritual journey began...and WHOOOOOAAA my life began to "crumble" as I knew it. I was laid off for a bogus reason. The money was gone. I LET GO of the people I called friends, and even my mate at the time disappeared and I was all ALONE. Or so it would seem. Any other year, I would have curled up into a fetal position and played the victim role, but this time I decided to do something new. I began to work on me, and look for that which I "thought" was lost.

As I began to be THANKFUL for all that I had, more came. Whether it was insights, divine intervention, money, food, whatever the case may have been I received more. I began to walk with an attitude of gratitude. My steps were brighter. Most days I would find myself saying "thank you" as one foot took a step in front of the next. I would say "thank you" every time I walked into my garage and saw my car still there. Actually even when my car got repossessed and I was riding the Marta in the rain and would be drenched from Atlanta's famous sideways downtown rain pour, I would still find myself being thankful. (Car was returned...lol)And through that situation, I found a way to be thankful for the "bad" knowing that the lesson was mine to learn so that something new could emerge and be birthed through me.

So today, I remind you all to be aware of your attitude of gratitude. Be thankful not just for what you want, but more so be thankful for what YOU HAVE! Remember, the things you have now were once the things that you had only hoped, dreamed, wished, and prayed for. Count your blessings, you may find that you run out of numbers....

LOVE & LIGHT

JUST SPINNING MY WHEELS...

When I came home tonight, I started thinking about last year and how different things were for me. I was dating a very cool gentleman named "Z" and we had a good thing going. The winter was really our time. We would lock ourselves away for days on end inside of my apartment and rap about EVERYTHING. It was a time of change then, with President Obama running for president......and there was this sense of "anything being possible" in the air.

"Z" brought many smiles into my life. A great addition. Naturally things just dissipated. I couldn't tell you why......even now. I do miss him, but I am also sure that he must have been preparing me for what is to come. I learned a ton from him and I am thankful. There are no regrets, just wishes that I would have stared a little longer, laughed a little harder, and held on to our last hug a little longer! No matter what my mouth may say, he will always be loved by me.

So as I walk into my house tonight, alone, I started thinking about how many wonderful things GUYS say about me. Men who know me, knew me, and are getting to know me all say pretty much the same things. They all think I am a "catch of sorts" because of the woman I have grown to be, however whatever praise they usually give me ends in "but I'm not ready for you" or "I'm scared of you". It's all extremely appreciated, but those thoughts brought me to to this question: "If they all see the same treasure in me, why am I walking into my house ALONE? Because they 'fear' what I bring to the table?"

Now, for those of you who don't know me, I spent the better part of 09 contemplating and practicing letting go of the VICTIM role to become a VICTOR. So clearly the answer to the above question is this.....Though some of them have been jewels in my eyes, they weren't the treasure I should have been searching for. Mind you, I have met some GREAT, GREAT men. Two in particular that I can name now, but all in all I have been blessed to have been in good company.

So for now, I will make my own tea, create my own smiles, and imagine the mate who will be a great addition to my mind, body, soul and PURPOSE. All things happen for a reason, and never think you are alone in your thoughts. This time that I have been GRANTED is time that I shall use wisely and spend much of it on ME! Preparing myself for my life partner, for my kids and grandkids. Becoming a better friend, daughter, person...woman....SPIRITUAL BEING! So isn't that a blessing. Many will say in "disguise" but I would beg to differ.

I suppose this entry is specifically for the ladies, who like me, are "getting older "(whatever that means) and watching the friends they grew up with get married and settle down. To you I say this (as well as to myself)...The Source doesn't work in time, that's something we humans created....so be patient. Be faithful. BELIEVE, DREAM, & IMAGINE. He's coming.......

Now let's get this tea brewed and this smile cracking....

LOVE & LIGHT!

A NEW DAY!

I figure the beginning of the year is the best place to begin this journey. I have been told for a while now that I should WRITE! Mostly a book, but we shall see what is to come of this venture.
So many new opportunities in store for so many great people. I can FEEL IT! Life is anew for me, as if I am looking through a pair of new eyes. I am elated to have been given this chance to say YES to the possibilities that are at hand.

I am throwing my maps to the old trails away and beginning NOW. I am not interested in the road less traveled, nor am I interested in the road that everyone is on. I am a pioneer! I am the master of my own house, captain of my own ship, and the wind that blows....the lovely wind of change that has me wrapped so gently in the mix is the Ineffable.

Today I discover me and hope that you too take it upon yourself to rediscover you! The real you! Leave the programmed person you've known this long behind. Leave them exactly where they are. Do not allow them back into your house, or car, or LIFE! Let them be. They have not gotten you far obviously, so they are of no use to you! Instead, let's embark upon something new. Something never seen, named, or discovered. Let's look for that diamond.....Let's find that treasure. Let's be brilliantly lit regardless of what things may come....Let's be the reminder for each other, that we are today, tomorrow, and forever...nothing less than GREAT!
Love & Light